Me Time
Most times events move so fast that I just get caught up in the flow. It's important to take "me" time to step back, reflect, and simply have time to re-order and make sense of all that has happened. I recommend this to my friends and other hangers-on.
You know the type. After Yavin I could hardly go to the 'fresher alone. There was always someone wanting me to tell them - sigh, again - how it happened (quickly), what was it like (scary!), why'd I switch off my targeting computer (I think I heard Ben tell me to - they always look at me queer when I tell them this), what'd I think about the fact that Solo came back (sweet, but was it really for the cause I wonder?), what was it like to get a medal from the Princess, yadda yadda yadda.
Though, I must tell you that, while I don't remember much about the whole award ceremony on Yavin, I do remember the deeeeeep plunge of the neckline on the Princess's gown. The guys get a kick out of that.
But my point is that, at times I feel like this crazy galaxy has caught me up in its hectic spin. I suppose that, in many ways, it has. Which is the reason why this kind of quiet time is important.
You know, droids still process information even after they power down. They re-sort and re-file and re-index the information in their electronic brains. It's supposed to help optimize performance and remove extraneous information - astrogation remainders and such. If they don't they pick up a "flutter". You know, the odd quirkiness or freeze in midaction of some of the older models. I think that if we don't stop and do the same thing from time to time, we risk picking up a flutter too.
To be perfectly honest, I'm a little bit worried about the voices I hear. During the whole Death Star thing, especially in the thick of the action, I could swear I heard Ben's voice. After the fact, I wrote it off as the stress and excitement of the time. I mean, I had barely tooled around the upper Tatooine atmosphere and then -BAM!- I was in one of the most advanced (and illegal) fightercraft ever built and bringing down one of the Empire's biggest capital investments of all time. Oh my head (as 3PO says), if that's not a mind-job then what is?
I've seen the 2-1B and it said everything was normal and that I just needed some down time. It suggested I write my thoughts down, so that's part of the reason for this. I've not told any of the other guys about the writing though, I think they'd find it, I don't know - girlish or something.
But Ben always told me to "reach out with my feelings" so here I am, reaching out, writing what I'm thinking as I journey through cold hyperspace, re-indexing my own thoughts and trying to purge that remainder, that phantom of you, Biggs.
You know the type. After Yavin I could hardly go to the 'fresher alone. There was always someone wanting me to tell them - sigh, again - how it happened (quickly), what was it like (scary!), why'd I switch off my targeting computer (I think I heard Ben tell me to - they always look at me queer when I tell them this), what'd I think about the fact that Solo came back (sweet, but was it really for the cause I wonder?), what was it like to get a medal from the Princess, yadda yadda yadda.
Though, I must tell you that, while I don't remember much about the whole award ceremony on Yavin, I do remember the deeeeeep plunge of the neckline on the Princess's gown. The guys get a kick out of that.
But my point is that, at times I feel like this crazy galaxy has caught me up in its hectic spin. I suppose that, in many ways, it has. Which is the reason why this kind of quiet time is important.
You know, droids still process information even after they power down. They re-sort and re-file and re-index the information in their electronic brains. It's supposed to help optimize performance and remove extraneous information - astrogation remainders and such. If they don't they pick up a "flutter". You know, the odd quirkiness or freeze in midaction of some of the older models. I think that if we don't stop and do the same thing from time to time, we risk picking up a flutter too.
To be perfectly honest, I'm a little bit worried about the voices I hear. During the whole Death Star thing, especially in the thick of the action, I could swear I heard Ben's voice. After the fact, I wrote it off as the stress and excitement of the time. I mean, I had barely tooled around the upper Tatooine atmosphere and then -BAM!- I was in one of the most advanced (and illegal) fightercraft ever built and bringing down one of the Empire's biggest capital investments of all time. Oh my head (as 3PO says), if that's not a mind-job then what is?
I've seen the 2-1B and it said everything was normal and that I just needed some down time. It suggested I write my thoughts down, so that's part of the reason for this. I've not told any of the other guys about the writing though, I think they'd find it, I don't know - girlish or something.
But Ben always told me to "reach out with my feelings" so here I am, reaching out, writing what I'm thinking as I journey through cold hyperspace, re-indexing my own thoughts and trying to purge that remainder, that phantom of you, Biggs.
posted by L. Skywalker at 19:57
3 Comments:
Hey, Luke. Just so you know, lucky shot.
-DV
DV? Who is this? Wedge?
Someone once told me that there's no such thing as 'luck'
Young Master Skywalker
Those voices you hear are perfectly normal paranoia, everyone has that… Beware your feelings; they can deceive you. Something you both your father and Ben have yet to understand.
Amb. K, Naranek
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